As I contemplated taking my third test, which was a week away, I realized that I had done everything humanly possible to succeed.
I had taken three more driving lessons. I had studied. I had yoga therapy sessions. I had meditated. I had prayed and asked others to pray for me. I had a hypnotherapy session. Now, I was ready. I took the driving test with a numbing resignation, hoping I would pass, but not so sure I would. When the test was over and the driving examiner told me congratulations, you passed, I was so relieved, I cried. I had passed the driving test, but was still anxious inside. All the previous failures had destroyed my confidence. I could drive wherever I wanted now, but didn’t want to. The driving anxiety of the last seven months was still inside of me. I had thought it would automatically go away when I passed the test, but it didn’t. It took time and continued work for that to happen.
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AuthorDebra Wheeler is a retired educator of 30 years, teaching at community colleges and elementary schools in the United States, Germany and England. Debra works now as a Yoga Therapist and teacher, working with adults and children. She co-created and implemented a mindfulness program for elementary schools. Debra loves to listen to chamber orchestras and cathedral choirs, as well as playing classical piano music. She loves lilacs, sunflowers, blue skies, fresh air, mountains, and dancing in the rain. Family and friends are where her heart resides. Archives
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